FUBAR AGAIN

Up to 158.0 today,

I definately earned that yesterday though. I had a minor cave in. Had guests for dinner so I had a few pieces of carrot and potato with my serving of roast. And then of course I couldn't resist a fresh cornbread muffin....
And earlier in the day I had a small slice of bread for toast. I was able to handle having bread around the first week or so but right now it is really hard for some reason.
So I just shove it in a cupboard so the boys know where it is but I don't have to see it.

I did fine up until about 4 PM.

So I feel pretty shitty today. I feel like I wasted the last three days.

I know for having completed 12 days of the program that 7 pounds gone is still fantastic. And all I can do is forgive myself and jump back on today. But I'm still disppointed in myself.

I hope everyone had a better Monday than I did. And I hope today I can be stronger!

Sunday, day 11 on VLCD..8.5 LBS GONE

156.5 today, that's down a pound and a half over yesterday.

I cheated a little yesterday but it seems I did ok.

I have a couple favorite food items I trade off with each day, like chopped lettuce with Bragg's aminos/cider vinegar, ground spices and chicken breast. Or tomato stuffed with shredded chicken, 1/2 a wasa cracker and (my cheat item) 1/2 TBS of crumbled feta. Mix in some spices and cook that, and oh so GOOD!

Today I had a treat for sunday breakfast. I had some scrambled eggs. about a 1/2 of a whole egg, plus 3 whites. Strawberries, my cracker and coffee with 1 TB of 1/2 and 1/2.
My feast took up about 220 cals. Nearly half my daily. So if hungry I am planning on just dressed up lettuce for a munch mid day. Then my other protein and veggie for dinner.

But it was so good having a brunch...plus eating with the family for once was nice.

So far I am very pleased with my progress.

I suspect the scale will go up a tad tomorrow as I weighed about 2 hours later in the day than usual. And I have to be up at 5:30 in the morning.


The last 2 nights I have had VIVID dreams about eating these huge plates of food. Like, taste, smell, texture all there. Then I wake up in a panic thinking I really did and realize it's all cool. Is that wacky or what? It was healthy food too, but geez, little food obsessed Manda?

Well, off to clean house and go buy more paint for the house!

Good luck to everyone today.

progress

Ive had slow steady progress. Work has been very hard. It's hard to cook without tasting things.

158.5 today YAY 150's!

I got my weekly stats done today with the following results:

Up a pound in water weight, EIGHT POUNDS OF FAT GONE...IN EIGHT DAYS! WHOOT!

Down 6% body fat.

So today is day nine, giving me 14 more days of HCG. Work is going to be super busy these next two weeks, I cant decide if that is going to make this easier or harder. I am hoping to lose at least 10 more pounds by the end. My TOM will be right at the end of the HCG round which is not exactly ideal...but I'll have to do my best and hope for the best.

Next stop I am hoping for by monday is 155. That would be pushing it, but would be awesome!

Nervous

Down a pound today, Back at 160.0

I am nervous about going back to work today in regards to my diet. Did I mention I bake and cook for a living? Yeah so NO tasting, careful what I handle. It's going to be hard so I hope I have enough will power to just take an apple with me, drink lots of tea, and be happy with that.

I made soup for dinner last night because I was cold. Vegetable bullion, a handfull of white onion, sliced meat, fresh ground pepper and a couple ginger slices.

It was pretty good and all the warm liquid was filling.

Good luck all...I'm still shooting to get rid of this 6 on the scale!

And, a step in the wrong direction

I put a pound back on....now I know I am still doing well...but..it's so discouraging....
My honey and I went to breakfast and I just had coffee. He got biscuits and gravy with eggs and bacon...I was upset about my gain and part of me just wanted to say...screw it and have some...because yes it did smell SO good.

But I didn't.

I have been good. I just had my lunch of chopped lettuce with diced (weighed) chicken breast with liquid aminos and apple cider vinegar. And those grindable spices you can get at the store now, one called "salad topper" tasty.

I hope tomorrow will be better.

Sunday, day four

Down another pound. Good riddance and I hope never to see you again!
I am at 160.0 today. It would make me so happy to never weigh in the 60's again. I am hoping with all my heart for the 50's tomorrow.
start weight:165.0 on 2/21/08
Current weight:160.0 on 2/24/08 wow!

Menu yesterday: coffee for breaky (I splurged and had a TB of silk (soy creamer)
snack: Strawberries and my cracker
lunch: sliced tomato with seasoning and lemon garlic shrimp
snack: apple and my second cracker
Dinner: buffalo steak (very lean) with S/P and rosemary. My honey prepared it so it had a tiny bit of Olive oil...he didn't realize I could not have that. And 4 asparagus spears with salt and pepper.
Trying to keep up on the 2 large glasses of tea per day and water whenever I think about it. That is normally enough to net me at least 60 oz of liquid.

Now that my body has adapted a bit I find it much better to split my meals up rather than eat it all in one sitting. I rather like having my fruit and cracker seperate and my energy seems higher that way.

This morning was my first that I didn't wake up with the empty gut feeling.

Anyway I am very happy that I have already lost 5 pounds after 3 days completed! I am so hoping not to hit a wall like I always seem to when losing weight.

I just have to have faith and be careful.

I can do this. I am 25% of the way there already!

DAY THREE-WOW!

This morning I got up to find a nice suprise. The scale says 161.0. That's a 3 pound loss over night!

I am so hoping in the next couple of days to hit the 50's.

Yesterday's Menu:

B: Apple and coffee
Snack: My first protein-chicken
lunch: asparagus and 1/2 grapefruit
Dinner: Lemon garlic shrimp and some more asparagus with one rye crisp.
Beverages: about 32 oz water and several 16 oz cups of tea.

I'm so thrilled I have lost 4 pounds in two days! I just hope I don't hit a wall now....please please let me get a little further first!!!

Good luck to everyone today!